ABOUT ME

For more years than I once cared to admit, I was in a state of heartache, suffering, and comparison. Stuck in the stories of days passed, looking at what others around me had and what I didn’t, led to feelings of unworthiness and a damaged sense of self. I couldn’t get out of my own way or figure out what was blocking my deepest wishes and desires for my life.

Eventually, I admitted to myself that it was me. Although there were experiences beyond my control, I was ultimately responsible for how I felt and my choices going forward. My energy and deep-rooted subconscious beliefs were preventing me from feeling at ease and aligning with the life I wanted.

Frustration and shame led to disassociation from my body and heart. The wall around my heart was so thick. It was a preventative measure I placed upon myself to try and prevent further pain. But in order to take that step towards my highest timeline, I was going to have to break down this barrier. As an empath and highly sensitive to others’ energy, I had to learn how to transmute the painful and dense energy of the past and protect my own energy going forward.

It would require acceptance, alchemy, and a new way of being-transformation. I was ready to write a new narrative for my life and step into alignment.

Finding forgiveness and rebuilding my relationship with an estranged parent. Navigating and healing health issues. Unexpectedly losing a loved one in a tragic accident. Several years of significant life events led to my greatest transformation yet.

Grief became my greatest teacher.

When we do not address our grief, it can impact our physical, mental, and emotional well-being; our self-worth, and our interpersonal relationships. It can also impact how we show up and participate in the world.

The loss of someone I loved so deeply broke my heart in ways I could never have imagined. Over time, I assembled a toolkit to support my journey. Some days I just wanted to spend in bed all day. Other days, I could use one of my tools to help navigate the experience. Most importantly, I honored where I was. Some say, “take it day by day” while I learned “take it minute by minute,” felt more accurate.

The experience also brought up a lot of unresolved grief as well. Feelings I had pushed away and decided not to deal with long ago. Eventually, I was ready to “burn it all to the ground” so to speak. Meaning, I was finally ready to let go of the old programming, the ruminating stories of my past, and build anew. Ready to create a life that was true to me, one where I could embody my most authentic and empowered self. Helping others use what once held them back as fuel to write a new narrative and transform their own lives is what lights me up.

There is no timeline for navigating grief and no “right” way to do it. It is a journey that is as unique as each one of us. It is both personal and universal. Grief is one of the most painful feelings, has the ability to make you feel alone and even want to isolate, and here it is one of the most common shared aspects of the human experience. Yet so many of us find grief uncomfortable to talk about let alone give ourselves permission to feel. Perhaps the fear of its depth is too great to bear. But grief can lead to surprising gifts, if you are open to it. It can transform your life and lead you to unexpected insights about yourself. It can catapult you into your highest timeline yet.

When you are in the thick of it, remember, grief ebbs and it flows. Ride the wave.